Just when I thought that the rains would stop and the sun will shine, my father dies last Thursday morning. As much as I want to narrate the events that transpired, I do not have the heart to do so right now. But I will get there and write something about it.
It’s the second week of May and it’s been more than a month since I last entered anything into this online journal of sorts. Well, so what happened to my life in the past four weeks? Has the rain finally stopped? Well, the sun certainly didn’t stop from shining down on all of us, reminding us that indeed it is still summer season.
As for me, I moved to a new place in Makati City three weeks ago. I am a bit excited about my new pad, because this is the first time that I would have my very own apartment that I am renting out. Oh yes, for the longest time I have just been renting a room in a house. So why the sudden change of status?
Well, for one thing, before my dear friend Orly died he left me with specific instructions of taking care of this kid who he was suppose to be the legal guardian as he will be studying in DLSU. That’s one reason why I had to get a small apartment. The other reasons has to do with how I live my life now. I really don’t like the idea of just staying inside my room all the time. Besides, I love to cook and saves me more money in the long run. But man, moving my stuff into my new place was a big challenge.
Anyway, aside from a new apartment at the heart of the Makati Central Business District — I am also applying for a new job. Oh yes, I am giving up my status as a freelancer. Some people do not understand why I find it hard to move on with my life since my friend who died is not really family. For me, he was more than family. A few of my friends understand what I am going through, and I guess that’s enough for me. I do not expect everyone to understand. Nevertheless, I realized much more now the importance of life and that life is indeed fleeting.
So how’s the job hunting going on? Frankly, it has been tough. I only got three phone calls and two interviews. Of the three, only one shows any promise that I would proceed to the next three levels of the interview process. I’m not used to looking for a job because for the past decade of my professional life – I experienced being offered a job and projects. I never really found it hard to look for a job until now. I am beginning to feel what it is like to really look for a job, and now when I get a new job I think that I would really cherish it since I worked hard just to get it. I really hope and pray that I would get another round of interview next week. And I hope that leads to what the HR person mentioned to the last two interviews with the client.
So if there’s anyone willing to help me out there and reads this, well, I am still looking for work. This coming Friday I am applying and going around the different call centers around Makati City. Oh yes, the one industry that I was afraid of applying is the one industry that offers one of the best paychecks and also among the ones that hires easily. Question is, will I be able to get the job? Right now I am just beginning to get the hang of the interview process and I am regaining the patience to fill up all those application forms that I really find redundant and unnecessary. Why does one have to keep up filling up these forms when there is the resume that they ask whenever an applicant comes in?
Anyhow, that’s my life right now. I just moved into a new place and I am starting to rebuild my life literally from scratch. I wish I had the heart to share the other heartaches that I just experienced recently here. I think that is too much already so I am trying to keep calm in the midst of the storms that surround me. Soon I hope I could go where the rain stops. But right now, it is my bedrock faith in God that keeps me going. That alone keeps me still and makes me walk on in this life that’s filled with muddy waters and flooded streets……
Go Where The Rain Stops 