Today’s already Tuesday. I celebrate each day’s change at the strike of the digital clock on my laptop while my fingers caress the keyboard playfully into a symphony of its own. And though I am grateful for each passing moment, I also dread the fact that I am slowly winding down in a pit of despair as my finances are being washed away by the sands of time. It’s not easy not having a regular job or project for the past four months. It’s tough making through each week not knowing where would the next meal come from? I suddenly feel as if I am warped back into my college days in which I only have my faith in God to anchor me at times like these.

I guess people who depend on God never really graduate from such a situation as total dependence. There’s always that element of faith. An element of trusting in the unknown. And it is that element that is keeping me sane and reminding me that there is good reason to live, to love and to give love in return.

My only wish right now is that before I turn into 29 in three weeks time, I would at least have a new job. That’s all I ask right now. I have so many desires, longings and things that I wish to proclaim out loud. Yet for now, I must remain silent about such things. I must be sober enough and also smile and remind myself that these trials will also come to pass like the rains. So like my blog’s title, I will continue to go where the rain stops and where the rainbow begins to shine.